Scatter-brained on a Beautiful Morning.

Today is absolutely a beautiful day to be outside. The weather is cool, the sun is bright, the birds are singing and I am in a very good mood. When I let the kids out for their morning playtime I decided it was a good day to bring the laptop outside to write. It is days like this that I think I will miss Arizona once it is no longer home. The days in fall when the weather is cooling down, there is no humidity to speak of, and the clouds are occasionally drifting in front of the sun… yes today is one of those days I will miss Arizona for. My kids are running around me and I notice something. I notice the absolute carefree attitudes they have. They care about nothing other then the right now. Where their Popsicles are and when they get them seem to be the only thing on their mind. I wish I could learn to enjoy myself they way they do. Sheer happiness floods over them at almost all times. Well , other then time out or bed time. I want to take the lesson I have learned from my kids today and apply it to my life. I want to wake up every morning with a smile and look forward to the now. This task is going to be a hard one with all the crappy stuff but I think that if I remain positive even all of the hard stuff like Levi’s upcoming deployment will become more then just bearable. I want to be able to live and enjoy these precious moments I have with our kids, learn how to capture them with film and written stories in such a way Levi doesn’t feel like he has missed anything. Today I am taking all of the bad things, the unknowns, the what if’s, and the how’s in my life and turning them into adventures full of fun and bliss instead of stress and worry. A few days ago Levi and I found out what unit in Texas he is going to. With that came the news a very near deployment to Afghanistan. Although nothing is for sure (It is the Army after all) we know that it is probably the reality. I have decided that I am probably going to go back to work. I love being at home with the kids but I think that I would like to work while he is gone to help pass the time a little quicker. MacKenzie is excited to move to the Army place (Ft. Hood) and go to school. I think it will be fun for her to go to a preschool and Thomas I know would love being in a Childcare center with other kids. I know there are lots of families where the mom works and where she doesn’t. It would be interesting to sit down with other Army Wives with a few deployments under their belts to see what they say are the pro’s and con’s of working and staying at home. …….